I am tired of the eyes that gaze at me for too long.
How does your spirit feel right now?
My spirit is feeling defeated. I have been touring Europe for the past month and I am exhausted. I am tired of being the only non-white person in spaces. I am tired of the eyes that gaze at me for too long. The microaggressions and the macroaggressions. “Wait, but where are you really from?” I want to leave my hotel room but it’s hard. It takes forever. My spirit wants so much to be alive. But my surroundings make it dwindle. I am bouncing in between putting up a hard shell and saying “FUCK IT.”